Getting back into another type of fog…

Here I was thinking I was coming out of the nursing fog. Only to discover I’m diving into another type of fog…

…let’s call it “I’m now a little bit angry at everyone and snap a little bit too easy if someone doesn’t for example hear my coffee order correctly”.

Why? Well… because although the nursing fog has disappeared my toddler is still not sleeping full nights. And lately that has meant me getting up every night to get her to sleep again.

Getting up every night means…

  • about 13 times per night …not kidding…13! I know this as I take print screens on my phone so I can see the time in the mornings (I like to keep stats as you know)

  • only to put the dummy back in…she gets quiet but I have to repeat the procedure like every 40 min.

  • she is in her own room so I’ve gotten really good at sleep walking.

  • If she would still be in our room it would be 20+ times every night…

  • and no…it didn’t work sprinkling more dummies in her bed in the hope of her finding one herself…

  • and yes, I have a husband that technically could help but we have a toddler each to take care of at the moment. Only his is called “his company”. And believe me it also wakes up 13 times per night 😂

Nursing Fog

So…yes…it’s real…there’s also a nursing fog…or what is more known as a nursing brain… AND I’m actually about to step out of it….walking out of it…or running out of it in full steam…

…I blame my silence here on the nursing fog. Because I do actually enjoy writing I realized…and you of course enjoy reading!

I’m at the point of stopping breastfeeding. Vienna is now over 6 months and a couple of weeks ago I literally woke up one day and discovered that I’m fed up with it, I’m done, finito, klar! You might think that she should have something to say about this and she has…for 6 months…but not any more. For me to keep sane I need to stop and she needs to eat. So….that I can start working again….meaning being away from home full days. Having had two toddlers close to each other (thankful everything has gone well so far), I’m now DESPERATE to start working full time again. So this is exactly what I have done!

But that’s another post.

This post is dedicated to the wonderful experiences created by the nursing fog…

  • sometimes picking up my phone or opening up a web browser only to have forgotten what I was going to do.

  • my 3+ cups of coffee per day trying and wake up from it

  • walking up and down the stairs in the house as I c.o.n.s.t.a.n.t.l.y forget something

  • ….or walking in and out of the house as I’m leaving as I c.o.n.s.t.a.n.t.l.y forget something

  • my constant eating…no ending to it…always…

  • …and no, for me nursing doesn’t make me loose all of the kg I gained. My body goes into survival mood and needs all the energy it can get.

  • not caring about all the ugly nursing bras I’ve had to wear because I’ve been in the fog…..(fixing this now..stay tuned…)

So, here we go - thank you and goodbye breastfeeding for this time. Thank you for working very well and helping my baby daughter to grow.

Now, I’ll be honest…..I’m not very keen on seeing you again…but never say never…



Pregnancy fog

 ...slowly slowly coming out of the pregnancy fog/pregnancy tiredness...whatever you want to call it...who am I kidding - I snapped out of it the second Vienna was born...

 ...theeeen I went in to a baby bubble for two weeks (which I didn’t have with Valeria) when I was happy just hanging out at home not seeing anyone...

...BUT on the 15th day that changed again and I felt this restlessness and energy all of a sudden...

...Ok let’s not exaggerate, our baby doesn’t sleep full nights BUT it was like waking up from having been in a different world....

...The pregnancy tiredness is serious!

Conclusion = Everyone with a pregnant person close to them - do as much as possible for them! 



1st stage = Pregnancy tired  


2nd stage = Baby bubble tired  


3rd stage = Restless and energetic (also possibly a little bit crazy) 

I’m back!

I’m back! Or to be honest I started writing this two weeks ago. So I guess I thought I was back then but really I’m more back now!

It’s been a while and priorities had to change for a while to some serious survival mood  being even more tired as the pregnancy progressed (no joke this time). 

So what’s happened since? 

  •  The biggest thing definitely being the arrival of our second daughter Vienna. She came in the morning 18th February and is now 4 weeks already (thank god). 
  • Having a shock of becoming parents to two daughters (still trying to understand we’re parents at all!) although my hubby probably was more shocked than I was because my friends have kept on telling me how full on it is having two. 
  • ...then Christmas, New Years etc. and all that comes with it with awesome hangout with family and friends also of course happened. 
  • ...but the thing I’m personally most grateful for (except for my kids then) is having energy again and not feeling as hormonal. Different energy, like “feel like I’m back to being myself” kind of energy. Being tired during pregnancy is no joke and second time around it was absolutely horrible (when I look back at it). But we made it! I say we because my husband was effected almost same way as I was from having to hang out with me during it 🙌😂   

That’s it for now. Now enjoy some photos instead  



16th Feb - 2 days before Vienna came

16th Feb - 2 days before Vienna came

At the hospital only like an hour after she came :)  

At the hospital only like an hour after she came :)  

First time they met each other! 

First time they met each other! 


One day old 

Christmas time!

It is Christmas time and this year I’m going all in with decorations (mainly myself in the form of dangly earrings).  

Its dark and it’s cold here in Sweden but heck I’m pregnant and super warm at the moment and tired any ways so fitting in just perfectly 🙌  

Presents are done and now chilling out whilst hubby is solving his list whilst Valeria is having the time of her life with grandma and cousins. Couldn’t get any better.  

We are so used to flying with Valeria that I was actually a bit nervous about driving all the way up here yesterday. But it went like a charm (so must go really bad when we go back again). She was happy reading and playing by herself the first 1.5h, got 30 min of time after that with the iPad when she got cranky, then stayed to have lunch at a burger place. After that she slept for the next like 2.5h and the last hour she was all happy again looking out of the window (most likely at all the lights as it was dark now)...

...oh and was constantly giving her snacks. That’s probably what did it in the end....haha!  

Good start of Christmas celebrations!  



As we’re coming closer to the due date of V2 there is definitely a lot of mental processing going on at my end. It’s like the brain is adjusting for her to arrive with all that it means, change, sleepless nights, all the planning around it etc. etc. And with that I feel more and more prepared.

This week I realized something in perticular. I need a hard deadline this time for going to focus full time on my business. Last time I didn’t know if I wanted to go back to my old job but as time progressed and I got more time to reflect on things I realized it was time to start my own company.

The benefit of having your own company is that it’s flexible. The downside of having your own company is that it’s flexible…

It’s sooo easy to prioritize everything else - specially as our lives are a little bit impulsive (some would say a lot).  I’ve worked as she’s been a sleep, evenings or whilst I had a babysitter. BUT, it’s definitely not ideal and after “having done everything at the same time” for a while I want to “not do everything at the same time”.

With Valeria I was super ready to work already after 4-5 months. So, this time that’s my hard deadline. I’m open for it being different this time but for now my hard deadline therefore will be July. We just have to figure everything else around it by then.

That feels great!


Pregnancy Update Week 33

…IT’s soooo different this week….just kidding, it’s pretty much the same as the last one. BUT last week entailed super interesting ultra delux things such as

  • embracing different Christmas looks right now such as looking as much as christmas decorations as possible.

  • a lot of sparkly and dangling earings

  • stretchy closefit dresses for some reason makes me feel least big at this point

  • went for a new hairdo and cut it all of. Figured it was time to do something new and this was an attempt to look glamourous with least amount of effort.

  • went to social hangouts with friends and family everyday. I go a bit crazy when I don’t see anyone else but Valeria for a whole day. Specially when husband is travelling. Figured it was going to be crazy when I booked but turned out I got more energy and didn’t get more tired from doing it. So definitely a winning concept!

  • went to a super cozy Lucia concert for families in a church here. Although it was very similar to flying with Valeria (read “had to entertain her contently so she didn’t wriggle down to run around in the church”) it was only 30 min and I of course managed to become super emotional as I used to sing in so many of these concerts and here I was sitting with my daughter who was experiencing it for the first time!


THE week

You know that feeling when you’re restless and you want to try something new? I’ve been having that lately. Sooooooo this week has been a week of testing my limits, a week of socializing everyday due to two reasons

  1. Husband travelling all week (I should be used to this but miss him everytime)

  2. Wanted to test my boundaries, or rather how much energy I have currently. As my energy levels have been up and down they’ve lately been more on the up side. If I chill I do get really tired, but I love hanging out with people so figured I’d test my limits a bit. Worst case I could just cancel plans.

What did I do?

  • Socialized E.V.E.R.Y.D.A.Y! Either at home or at someone elses house. This used to be my normal everyday life but being pregnant, having a toddler and trying to get a business going doesn’t always leave energy for that…you get my point (the latter is more on hold).

  • Did Christmazy things such as christmas concerts and wearing dangly earings

  • Focus on Valeria getting to meet lots of kids. She loves it! Need daycare now so she can run around and play with everyone

How did it go?

  • Awesome!

  • Happy kid happy mom

  • Definitely a few meltdowns (on both our ends) but I’d rather have it with other people than by ourselves. I’m telling you again collective living is my thing.

  • Didn’t get more tired, had the same amount of energy left in the evenings a if I’m home all day (if not more), and a little bit happier mental wise!

Definitely doing it all again next week!




Hung out with sheep


Did Christmassy things  


Played with other kids toys 🙌 

Uses of my belly

As belly is just growing and growing and growing and GROWING I figured I’d better start making use of it. I mean it WILL disappear again so might as well enjoy it these last couple of weeks.

  • I have a private coffe table at all times!

  • Valeria has a pillow available at ALL the times. Although it’s not as comfortable when she sits infront of me and leans back. Her head ends up being above the belly so it’s not high enough if you know what I mean.

  • It’s a good conversation starter where people usually say - “Oh, when are you expecting?” and I shock them with saying something like “Oh no, I’m not pregnant I’m just fat” and then laugh really badly by the shock in their face.

  • For some reason it IS VERY satisfying rubbing it. Oh AND I can lean my hands on it. So if you’re one of those people who doesn’t know what to do with your hands most of the times you would definitely enjoy being pregnant.

  • Can’t really see my toes so can’t really see the bad pedicure I did (by myself). The perfect cover up!

  • Always something going on if I’m bored. Since she’s moving a lot I can just sit back and enjoy the spectacly as it looks like I have an alien in my belly trying to get out sometimes….



Stroller time

Starting to look for a stroller. I admit it, I think these things are sooooo boring to be honest. I’d rather Netflix than research strollers at the moment so if anyone wants to help, you’re more than welcome. 

The advice I’ve gotten is to get the bugaboo donkey which is the Rolls Royce of the buggies. The thing is......we really want it to be easy to bring, taxi, flight, car, you name it! It has to fit with our lifestyle and that includes all means of transportation. I’m thinking there must be something out there that is super ultra deluxe easy to fold and doesn’t take up that much space for a family like ours that tends to impulsively travel to different places. 

I’m a BIG FAN of the yoyo, just saying…so you understand where I’m coming from. We do have a more robust stroller as well - a joolz. But didn’t have to research that one as my brother luckily was selling theirs. My husband considered researching others but after I put a deadline in the calendar for the opportunity to research (we usually do this), we quickly identified neither of us was interested enough to care. So we bought my brothers. 

Is it too much to ask for the following? 

  • Super ultra foldable (imagine the yoyo)

  • goes as hand luggage on flights (ok I know I might be pushing this one)

  • can take both a new born and a 17 month old.

  • can handle cobblestones

Ideas anyone?


Our one and only most awesome yoyo

Our one and only most awesome yoyo

Our one and only joolz, not hand luggage material but still good  

Our one and only joolz, not hand luggage material but still good  

Pregnancy Update Week 32

Time for another update on pregnancy. Entered week 32 this weekend!


  • Common to start waddling at this point as hip joints are softening. BUT waddled less after going to the gym twice last week. Made a huge difference to this stiff body so will definitely prioritize minimum 2 sessions a week.

  • Realised I stopped working by this time during my first pregnancy. Was the best choice I made! This time I’m stepping up because I haven’t been able to get anything done the last couple of weeks. Don’t worry, stepping up means max, max, MAX 10 hours a week. And love working, it keeps me sane.

  • Hormonal dips = 1 AND kind of could make it go away through hanging out at my brothers house.

  • Nesting nesting nesting, mooooore than I did with Valeria


  • Kicking, KICking, KICKING even to the extent that my husband tells me in the morning how he felt her kicking on his back when I’m the big spoon at night (YES, we variate who’s the big/small spoon)

  • She will be about 39 cm end of this week and way 1,95kg

  • Fruit/vegetable wise baby is now the size of a winter squash, squash or head of romaine lettuce depending on the app I check.

  • She may lie head down already now, but I doubt it. I think she will come in breech just like her big sister did….

Big sister Valeria

  • Still has no clue she’s getting a baby sister…


You see - noooo clue.... 

The tired post...

Yup…this is another post about being tired…remember I wrote about it earlier? You can read it here otherwise.

But bare with me, I have an idea. Let’s play the game “switch the word “tired” to another word like “happy” instead “to change my mindset.

So, what made/makes me”happy” lately?

  • It made me happy when Valeria got a cold last week and couldn’t fall asleep one night until 3am and then the next night woke up at 5am.

  • It makes me happy when we don’t have an elevator and I carry Valeria first down to the stroller and then up some stairs with the stroller and then down again to get out. I’m too happy to count the stairs to give you the exact amount.

…OK.HANG.ON!…this didn’t turn out as funny as I thought it would…

Let’s change it to the other way around instead…

Let’s write what makes me happy as though it makes me tired instead…

  • It makes me “tired” that I didn’t have to carry 23kg worth of groceries because I found a good delivery online.

  • It makes me “tired” that my husband is home this week because he’s so funny and I want to spend every week, day, hour, second! with him.

  • It makes me “tired” that Valeria usually sleeps 8pm to 7am because I get so much chill out time in the evening.

There we go - that was better :D

and to finish it of with a tired picture 😅 


Update Gestational Diabetes

A few weeks ago I found out I have gestational diabetes during my pregnancy. This was a bit of a shocker at the time but now seems pretty average compared to other more shocking things going on….it’s all about perspective in life people…

So what happened since?

  • Measured blood sugar 7 times a day for 2 weeks. Got reeeeeaaaallyyyyy good at using the needle best way possible so it wouldn’t hurt. Except for once when then needle got too deep and it hurt like shit.

  • Stuck to normal food during these two weeks to test what worked and didn’t. Meaning, still ate pasta, white bread etc BUT cut out sweets and desserts. Also meaning continued to eat regularly - breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack…I eat often…haha.

  • …ok not fully…had a muffin to test what happened and got too high of a value immediately.

  • …ok and have to admit that I was really craving sugary things during these two weeks, so started eating more which definitely did the trick!

  • Had a follow up with nutritionist after two weeks and all was good except for a few morning values.

  • What didn’t work? white bread as a snack, nor too sugary things such as muffins etc.

  • Now measuring blood sugar 7 times 3 days a week to keep a track on it. And have set up a day during the week when I’m “allowed” to eat something sugary if I crave it (common I’m a grown up).

  • Woop Woop!

  • …Oh…and I admit it…since then my hormonal dips have been far less than they were before. Husband thinks it can be because I cut out sugar….well….


Sugary things! 

Valeria 15 months

Not only was it husbands birthday but Valeria also turned 15 months. On her monthly birthdays we usually wake her up with presents, cake and singing….NOT!…

To be honest I have to count the months every time someone asks but since soooo much happens with her development I thought I’d list a few things.

Eat - She eats what we eat. Meaning exactly just that, I eat pasta carbonara, she eats pasta carbonara, I eat pizza, she eats pizza, I eat fish grating, she eats fish grating. It’s probably more what she eats that I DON’T eat. She eats fruitbars, I don’t, she eats white bread, I don’t, she eats “majskrokar”, I don’t, well ok, sometimes just one, they’re so weird but oh so effective to keep her busy when she’s cranky.

Sleep - sleeps once during the day after lunchtime, usually for 1.5-2h but sometimes randomly 3h. Then falls asleep during the night about 8pm - 7 or 8am. I’m very hesitant to write this because it feels like everytime I write something about her sleeping habits she senses it and goes all wild starting to wake up in the nights, refusing to sleep in the evenings, stuff like that!

Plays with - books, loves her toothbrush, postcards. Specially walks around with the postcard if he’s on it saying daddy (when he travels).

Things she does - hides behind my back when I sit on the floor, and plays pick a boo. Wakes up on the wrong side sometimes, screams and nothing can save her except for ipad.

Things she says - a lot of random stuff that I have no clue what it means but also a lot of “nose”, “daddy”, up, down, book, shoes etc. All in Swedish at the moment.

There you go, latest update!  



Pregnancy Update Week 31

As we’re starting to get closer to THE due date I thought I’d have some more regular updates on the pregnancy.

So, what’s going on during this week?

  • size of baby will be about 37 cm and way around 1.76kg at the end of this week. Fruit wise that’s either a winter squash, a large cabbage or a summer cantaloupe depending on the app I check!

  • organs are almost fully developed, lungs take the longest time. Baby just has to gain weight now. AND since I am as well I have retired all trousers and will now attempt a “super comfy clothes but lighten it up with bling bling accessories” kind of life.

  • it’s cramped in my belly and my stomach is now so big that it’s affecting my mobility - word!

  • body may have begun to react with contractions when you do to much which is sign to ease up a bit - well, word again on that one!

  • every breath requires about 20 percent more oxygen and more carbon dioxide. Well, that explains the breathlessness and why I’m so slow!

  • Body is preparing for the delivery and I’ll sleep worse, wake up more often and will have a hard time concentrating. Hmmm, don’t think this is a new one to be honest…haha

  • It’s common to become introvert because of the mental preparation for parenthood and for the delivery - well still not the case, I’ve been dying to socialize because Valeria has been sick and husband has been away travelling.


The adventures of the car seat

It was tough, there were regrets, it was a fight but it was ALSO A SUCCESS!

I finally got around to buying a new car seat a few weeks ago. Or, I wouldn’t have gotten around to it, to be honest, if it wasn’t for my friend who found someone that had twins and therefore was selling two of them. EXACTLY the one that I had been googling as well (for a long 2 minutes). So I.WAS.IN!

Have to be honest though, I did have regrets when she told me where we had to pick them up. It would be far out, close to an IKEA and I would have to take public transport and then walk 20 min (which in pregnancy walking means 30 min).

But we did it! 


Don’t think I was in my right mind here. Definitely wouldn’t do it now.  


Week 29 oops I mean week 30

Started writing this a week ago when I was 29 weeks pregnant. But time flew by and here I am being 30 weeks (29+5) pregnant. The summary still applies though….I think

  • Less hormonal and don’t have as many mood swings as I did a couple of weeks ago. This miiiiiigt have something to do with the fact that I basically stopped eating cookies and candy (except for once a week) as I found out I have digestive diabetes. At least my husband thinks so….let’s say no

  • Happier in general…well yes, if you don’t count weird stuff going on right now that is not in my control, I’m generally a much happier person than earlier in the pregnancy.

  • loooots of movement. Yup! Feels like this one is moving more than Valeria did. Maybe a kind warning for what’s to come?….Oh shit!….

  • tired but know my limits…this one definitely applies. You’ll have me resting when Valeria does most of the times. Or bribing her with youtube so that I can rest a bit more, or read books in the bed…haha

  • go easier to bed early. Read 9 preferably 8. Except for when she decides to stay up until 3am because she was getting a cold, or when my husband travels because I find it difficult to fall asleep without him…oh shit..that’s this whole week…lets scrap this point…

  • wake up earlier in the morning… YES! I started waking up before Valeria. Isn’t that charming…  

  • Totallyy fine hanging out by myself…well not this week…I’m one of those mum’s currently that you meet that you can TELL haven’t met anyone for a while and really needs to get out. A little bit starry eyed (from coffee), always smiling (because it’s so nice to get out of the house), overly social (even talks to the cashier for a while which is totally weird in Sweden)


That early fresh morning look while toddler is still sleeping. Normally I would say don’t mind the mess, but DO MIND THE MESS - Me having energy to build Ikea stuff is pretty epic!

A deep and meaningful post

I’ve written so many drafts lately but not published a single thing. It has definitely been a crazy last couple of weeks on all fronts which have contributed to this.

Reality took over an YES I’m going to be annoying as fuck and not tell you about the details.

The point is...hmmm...what is the point?  The point for me is to

  • continue
  • go back to basics
  • prioritise and
  • focus on stuff that gives more energy
  • or actually change the above one to do what I can to preserve energy. 

Sometimes you just have to make pancakes instead 🙌🤣 


I admit it. I’m in a bit of a blockade right now. Can you say that? Blockade? Too tired to google. Well well, I’m sure you know what I mean...

Any how - I figured out why...I’m just too tired and doing some mega ultra prioritising of energy at the moment. It’s so well integrated in my mind that I wasn’t even aware I did it. Until I remembered I haven’t posted in the blog for a while. I have to admit I think it’s a pretty awesome talent though... and think I’ll even add it to my list of superpowers you get when you’re pregnant “only do what’s absolutely necessary super power”.

Now that I think about it, this also made me very good at delegating at my previous job 🙌 woop woop!  

So, whilst I do some prioritising of chilling out in bed you can enjoy some pictures of my 28 week old bump in a new dress I bought today. Yes, I treated myself because I was up between 2-6am with our daughter who “all of a sudden thinks this is a good time to hang out”. And yes, it feels like I’m 38 weeks pregnant instead of 28. That’s how tired I am today and after asking Instagram I know why - it’s because I’m home with Valeria and not at an office during the day. Need.To.Plan.More.Office.Time!


Update in pregnancy

My updates of this pregnancy are veeeeery scattered. I’m still coming to terms with me being a mum, none the less, that I’m about to become a mum of two! Realising more and more that this is happening. Strange right?! That it takes some time. I mean it’s not I’m not noticing the pregnancy now that I’m in week 27  

  • Abdicated from trousers most of the time and made friends with leggings and tights - check!

  • getting hard to tie my shoes - check!

  • have energy enough to go out with Valeria tops once a day - check!

  • gestational diabetes - check!

  • Apparently have reached the stage of having the pregnancy glow! (As people around me keep saying which is good because I feel everything other than glowing) check!

  • officially can’t walk unlimited km any longer. 30 min is maximum. - check!

  • Officially found the cosiest sweater/dress on Cos that I’m going to live in this winter - check!